Again, the irony of my birthday happening to be on the same day as #worldmentalhealthday is far beyond me. Is this karma kissing me on the mouth? Maybe so.
I suppose that I could confess to all of you that I have/had this problem with depression around my birthday, probably because of rather personal and and or dark reasons. Perhaps I might’ve even tried to kill myself on this day (years ago) and on many other times as well because these are of the side effects of living with Bipolar disorder and Ptsd.
And the truth is that when you live with any form of disease or disorder we all have our ups and downs. The trick is to not allow your diagnosis and or downs rule you. For me I’m not my disease and yet still-I still have to work at being welland in control and because of this I’ve gone from a former professional mental patient into being the artist I’ve always wanted to become, along with becoming a teacher of creative expression, mental health care giving and soon to become a future talk therapist myself.
Quite a lot of heavy bombs to be dropping off on instagram right? Well, if I don’t say anything about myself and my life, how could I expect others to become more open and honest in regards to mental health and illness? If we at least talk to one another about it, perhaps all of this might not seem so heavy and or daunting. Perhaps we all wouldn’t get so quiet when someone says the words: depression, bipolar, mental health and or mental illness and ptsd.
Okay then, I must get away from everything that is being the nstagram addict that I’ve become as of late.
#suicide #suicideawareness #worldmentalhealthday #bipolar #biopolardisorder #ptsd #depression #depressionawareness #preventsuicide

A great little movie about some big ideas on mental illness. Much more honest than your average ‘Silver Linings Playbook’ Hollywood bullshit fanfare, no offense to those novelists that use mental illness as some sort of romantic comedy metaphor for love. Also, somehow the director of this film has stolen/hijacked my life story and made some money off of my former misery. #alittlebitmental #alot #unafraid #endstigma
Rory Culkin is really a fantastic actor. #greatacting #gabrielmovie #mentalillness #overshare #tmi

I have to say that the new bio picture on Brian Wilson; “Love & Mercy” is probably one of the most important and beautiful films I’ve seen in years. And I wouldn’t even call it a bio picture because I really hate bio pics or the idea that one persons life can be encapsulated within just 2 hours-which is impossible to do.
Such a real, abstract and beautiful way to portray the pain of mental illness and the creative process in regard to art/music/love. In the past decade, there have only been only two musical life films that have knocked me out: “Get On Up” the James Brown movie, and this new film about Brian Wilson and the Beach Boys. #mentalhealth #mentalillness #loveandmercy #myoscarpics #oscarworthy #brianwilson